Don't let it get you down!

It’s a strange place, or a new place to discover. It all depends on the point of view and the eyes staring at it. Caught up in the middle of a glass half full, you see how people are different and how we are all, without exceptions, looking for different things in life.

Even if the culture is the same, the heart ain’t. Sitting in the funkiest coffee shop I’ve ever been I begin to realize how the different attracts me. I never did and never will follow the flow, I still have my beliefs, and my soul is still intact, my heart guarded and giving up is not a word in my vocabulary.

More than half way there, change is a daily basis, I will keep knocking, searching, beating, sweating, crying, till I hold it in my hands…

Prayer. Definitely my army. Here’s the hope that the decisions made are the best ones and the ones affected don’t get too hurt. As for me, I know that the waves won’t flood my boat, only shake it a bit. I am still here, still alive and as far as anything goes in the Maker’s hands. I had no idea I had that much FAITH...

Happy End of August!

28 weeks to go! Hip! Hip!

Ain't everybody just trying to find a way home?

This song has been growing on me...

Bon Jovi - Happy Now

What would you say to me?
If I told you I had a dream
If I told you everything
Would you tell me to go back to sleep
Take a look in these tired eyes
They're coming back to life
I know I can change
Got hope in my veins
I'm telling you I ain't going back to the pain

Can I be happy now?
Can I let my breath out?
Let me believe
I'm building a dream
Don't try to drag me down
I just want to scream out loud
Can I be happy now?
Been down on my knees
I learned how to bleed
I'm turning my world around

Can I be happy now?
Can I break free somehow?
I just want to live again
Love again
Pick my pride up off of the ground
I'm ready to pick a fight
Crawl out of the dark to shine a light
I ain't throwing stones
Got sins of my own
Ain't everybody just trying to find a way home?

Can I be happy now?
Can I let my breath out?
Let me believe
I'm building a dream
Don't try to drag me down
I just want to scream out loud
Can I be happy now?
Been down on my knees
I learned how to bleed
I'm turning my world around

You're born then you die
It’s all gone in a minute
I ain't looking back
Cause I don't want to miss it
You better live now
Cause no one's going to get out alive, alive

Can I be happy now?
Can I let my breath out?
Let me believe
I'm building a dream
Don't try to drag me down
I just want to scream out loud
Can I be happy now?
Been down on my knees
I learned how to bleed
I'm turning my world around
Can I be happy now?
Ohhhh
I'm turning my world around
Can I be happy now?

It feels like HOME?

You never know what will trigger it, that’s the truth. Not even knowing it’s there asleep ready to burst anytime, come to surface and bring you tears. What? Well today the homey feeling brought up lots of things on me. Being around love, even if just for a while made me want to expel it, understandable when you don’t want to face it.

Don’t know what to say or if I am making any sense, but all this heat around me and the presence of some people I care about made me sad. How weird is that? I really can’t grasp what is that happened. But I am pretty sure I know where it’s all coming from.
Being that I been having a quite overwhelming week with expectations being raised by no one other than myself, and trying hard to hang on… all of the sudden being in a comfortable and home place made me miss it so much I wanted to leave.

This past couples months have been nothing short than amazing! Lots of things I only really dreamed about came to reality and I am still trying to touch the ground, with that, I know pretty soon the real deal will come knocking on my door, and although I know it will be alright, part of me want it to be summer forever, but truth is…I do miss the rain. Reason why I runaway from where I feel good, without having reasons.

Yeah, break the puzzle on that if you must.

Happy Canada Day!

To the Nation I chose to live. Happy 143th Birthday! Thankful with all my heart.

Thoughts Overload

In a world that bumps you here, pushes you there, trips you and embraces you at the same time, it is very hard to keep it up with all the sparkles and lights. We try to hold on and enjoy the ride as much as we can but sometimes it all comes together to overwhelm even the most zen minds.

Everything comes through hard work, at least for most of us mortals, and we have to bust our asses to get places, achieve goals and dreams. It won’t come knocking at your door, so get up and do it. Push, push, push…
Well. I am tired. I want to slow down, look at the ocean, feel the air, blow some bubbles, I usually can take it all at my own pace but some days are just harder than others eh? I don’t remember the last Sunday that I was lazy like this one, just laying around thinking about nothing, taking naps through the day, baking a cake, watching TV, it feels good just to be still for a minute.

This past week brought a lot of things to digest at once, and I got lost in all of it, couple meltdowns later I believe I might be back on track. There’s lots going on and most of it I have no control over so I’ll just wake up, breathe and go, the rest will take care of itself. I can only do my best.

Think. Think. Think. (Repeat).
I rather Be Still. Be. Be. (Repeat).

Livin' on a Prayer!

One thing that anyone who knows me a bit would tell you about you is that I am a Bon Jovi fan. Not just a regular fan, but a FAN with capital letters. I don’t remember exactly when it began although I remember it was watching a London show on TV about fifteen years ago. Bon Jovi was the reason why I know about 70% of my English vocabulary and why I met wonderful people around the world.

Can’t really tell you only one reason why I love this band, but for me, they are the best band out there and their show is the single best concert someone could ever be with almost three hours of good music and entertainment and the best lead singer on the business! They are a big part of my life and enough of explaining because only a fan understands…

Couple days and hours of sleep ago (having the worst jetlag in history) I was in London for a holiday, as Bon Jovi concerts can be an addiction, the more you go the more you want to, I had to see them live as well as enjoy one of the best cities in the world. Long story short, I got a picture with THE man himself! I don’t usually post private stories and pictures in here, but this one deserves a big frame around it.

Ain’t telling you how and where but if there was ever a meant to be picture, this IS the one! Wish I had some time to chat with him and that my voice would even come out for the matter… I know many people will read this and go “Sheesh what a freak” but I do not care one bit, this man is awesome and his lyrics got me through and still do, so watch me do a happy dance for my smile Jon Bon Jovi picture! Hey Hey!

June 9th, 2010. London, England.

House of Cards

It’s raining, it’s pouring… as for the looks of it, we are in for a wet first month of Summer. I do, however, hope I am deeply wrong. Got a call from a dear friend today that is tangled up on some things in her life that she caused by accident. She does not deserve anything she’s been going through, but when did life start to be fair?

It just got me thinking, together with last week incident in my life, how fragile we are all relating to each other, how much trust is a fine thread hanging by countless good deeds and ready to burst to any stingy screw up. How quickly we all forget about the way people treated us, made us feel, went that extra mile, held our hands, were there to hug us, and we just turn our backs to them, just like that, like nothing had ever happened or taken place between them.

Sad, better yet, pathetic. How we let those things interfere in our relationships, I myself, am sure to have done that couple times, and it hurts me to think about it. I try to be fair with people and I don’t even know how many second, third and countless chances I gave and been given.

I hate to think people are like seasons in our lives, they come and go, year after year, bringing snow, sun, wind, rain with them and taking it all away leaving us with a chill. I am thankful some are forever, like a big shade tree you always know where they are and how they’ll always embrace you with a nice breeze when you need it. I have my share of shady trees and for that I am glad. But I sure do, once in a while, think about all the other seasons in my life and the way they faded away...

Truth is, we need the rain to learn how to appreciate the sun.
Hence my love for Vancouver!