Ever since I was a little girl I’ve had a tendency to isolation. Not the emo-cut-my-wrist-open kind of drama, but I’d often play by myself, my own games, my own rules, no one to point the finger, mess up my coloring crayons or win over me. And I was happy, just like that. There were times, of course, that I would play with other kids but I had no problem, and actually preferred playing alone.
As I grew up things changed a bit, but I am still very picky with anyone I let in my life, most only see the surface and I can count on my fingers who really knows me, as I really am. I don’t believe I am a hard to like person, I’m actually very easygoing and cool with everyone, as long as you don’t off me, I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt. It's always more friendly in two...
As I grew up things changed a bit, but I am still very picky with anyone I let in my life, most only see the surface and I can count on my fingers who really knows me, as I really am. I don’t believe I am a hard to like person, I’m actually very easygoing and cool with everyone, as long as you don’t off me, I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt. It's always more friendly in two...
As life goes on and you lose your innocence, you figure out that not everyone that came closer to you was your friend, not everyone was at your side, and that few would stand up and remain by you when you need most. You also learn, that you will most definitely not be able to please everybody that come your way, and you will then stop trying, and let go. It’s still hard for me to let down the people I love, but I’ve learned to do it, as harsh as it is, it’s completely okay to say NO, to please you for a change. That’s the rule I go by these days. I see who I want and get out of my way only for the people that really matters. I am who I am, certainly not changing for anybody so love me or leave me.
Good thing is, you’ll bump into the ones that will stick, in the stickiest way, down deep in your heart, ones that will be your friends, your right hand, for whenever and wherever you need them. And those few are the ones that still make you believe in smiling to a stranger on the streets, to get out of your way to help out someone you don’t know very well, to give it a chance, to meet new and different people, because you never know the ones that will stick and the ones that will fade…here’s for the real friends out there, that love you for who you are! I know I am lucky enough to have them in my life!
“What would you think if I sang out of tune
Would you stand up and walk out on me
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
and I'll try not to sing out of key…”
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